All good advice and thoughts and I thank you all for the support. I'm a little disheartened but will soon get over it and learn to turn it all over to God...if I'm meant to grow something in this, it will grow. If not, it will not and that's okay too.
I've put a lot of work into this garden these past few years, so that part is the part that gets me....but no one twisted my arm on it and I have to live with the choices made. The work keeps me active and engaged in something, which otherwise I wouldn't have and would have no place for learning and growing.
I'll be side dressing soon, just have had some mobility problems of late that have prevented me from staying on top of it.
I've never once seen a slug in any garden I've ever had, so this is something new for me...every pest in the area seems to be interested in my plants, which tells me they are seriously in distress. Just got to figure out how to fix it without using chemical fertilizers and such....will be keeping my eye out for free manure to add to my own from the coop. Don't know how effective mine is due to being composted and not particularly nitrogen heavy at that point.