Stop smoking journal and then some

[akroberts]

My husband came home last night and I completely failed. All in all I probably smoked 5 cigarettes . This morning I found an open pack of cigarettes in his top nightstand drawer!!!! Does my husband not care enough about me to want me to stop smoking? Is he just being selfish? I woke up this morning before 5 am and I ended up with pain in my lungs, chest and ribs. I'm just so not sure as to why I continue to just feel like I am such a useless person without anyone that cares about me nor do they care about how they make me feel! I'm just really confused and considering if my life is worth living.

 

[Alasgun]

This is very serious stuff AND a lot to process on an on-line forum! You really need to find someone you can talk to though and quit with the “im so worthless” stuff.
Your not worthless but you do need a perspective change. This is the last place i’d try to find the kind of answers that will be useful to you.

If the Cig’s are causing you this much anguish; dont bother with the quitting right now; until you can get your head on straight.

Sorry, Mike

 

[flowerbug]

i'm sorry, at a distance we're not able to deal with medical emergencies and unfortunately with you being recently ill we also can't tell if "pain in your chest" etc. means leftovers from being sick or a more serious problem.

it's tough and even harder if your partner isn't able or willing to change or respect requests or whatever, but we can't tell here what conversations and agreements you might have already had with them.

instead of piling on yourself for failing count the days without as a gain and then keep at it as best you can. if that means a few less per day that's better than nothing attempted.

as for how to deal with your medical issues or conflicts and communication with your partner we're only here at a distance and you may need other more local help and support.

hang in there and do what you can and try not to be so hard on yourself for mistakes.

oh and as a postscript added later, i'm certainly not perfect and have my own issues, like i could certainly afford to lose 10-15lbs - glad that summer will be here soon so i can sweat it back off again.

 

[akroberts]

Thank you everyone. I just really went on a lash out. I'm really just trying to get rid of this yuck stuff because I really want to get into the garden and start redesigning it. I have an appointment today so hopefully I can find out what's going with this yuck stuff.