flowerbug
Garden Master
in the spring you might want to pull some of the wood chips to the side to let the sun warm up the garden soil.
Warrior in a Flower Garden
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Heliena
Chillin' In The Garden
Not a bad note! Gotta make some room so they don't crowd the tiny transplants anyway.
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Heliena
Chillin' In The Garden
Gonna post this one in a stroke of bravery, its a bit of a pep talk for myself.
It's mid February. I successfully let seed starting and seed ordering come quicker than I realized. I dread watching the clock/scratching off the days for anything, so I was pleasantly surprised when I realized that I'll want to start pansies and lavender soon. All four of my seed orders are in, picking up bulk potting soil on Monday, gonna go through the garage and inventory my seed trays and nursery pots, my spreadsheet for the garden timeline is done, my varieties are set in stone, all is going so smooth. But.... Lordy. I HAVE to stop asking permissions from my failures to be successful. I've never felt imposter syndrome quite like this. I'm a skilled gardener, and an intuitive one. I grow things that a lot of people give up on, and I do it regeneratively. I didn't even bring in any soil to my spent bramble patch/horribly neglected lawn turned garden last year, but its mid February and I'm still feeding myself from it. I HAVE to give myself permission to do what others are doing. I'm not a fraud, I'm not less "legit," I'm a market gardener. And I am entitled to all the connections and tools and resources at my disposal. No one hates me. Gosh. I gotta breathe it out. I may be the only proper market garden, who is specifically not a farm in the area. I really gotta set that coffee date with a potential mentor, even if I'm doing it scared out of my mind. I am not doing a good job of holding space for myself right now. Maybe I just don't really trust others to do the same.
It's mid February. I successfully let seed starting and seed ordering come quicker than I realized. I dread watching the clock/scratching off the days for anything, so I was pleasantly surprised when I realized that I'll want to start pansies and lavender soon. All four of my seed orders are in, picking up bulk potting soil on Monday, gonna go through the garage and inventory my seed trays and nursery pots, my spreadsheet for the garden timeline is done, my varieties are set in stone, all is going so smooth. But.... Lordy. I HAVE to stop asking permissions from my failures to be successful. I've never felt imposter syndrome quite like this. I'm a skilled gardener, and an intuitive one. I grow things that a lot of people give up on, and I do it regeneratively. I didn't even bring in any soil to my spent bramble patch/horribly neglected lawn turned garden last year, but its mid February and I'm still feeding myself from it. I HAVE to give myself permission to do what others are doing. I'm not a fraud, I'm not less "legit," I'm a market gardener. And I am entitled to all the connections and tools and resources at my disposal. No one hates me. Gosh. I gotta breathe it out. I may be the only proper market garden, who is specifically not a farm in the area. I really gotta set that coffee date with a potential mentor, even if I'm doing it scared out of my mind. I am not doing a good job of holding space for myself right now. Maybe I just don't really trust others to do the same.
Shades-of-Oregon
Deeply Rooted
Amen…
flowerbug
Garden Master
when you grow up without parents or with parents without healthy boundaries it can be a challenge to figure it out later.
, Heliena
