flowerbug
Garden Master
in the spring you might want to pull some of the wood chips to the side to let the sun warm up the garden soil.
Warrior in a Flower Garden
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Heliena
Chillin' In The Garden
Not a bad note! Gotta make some room so they don't crowd the tiny transplants anyway.
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Heliena
Chillin' In The Garden
Gonna post this one in a stroke of bravery, its a bit of a pep talk for myself.
It's mid February. I successfully let seed starting and seed ordering come quicker than I realized. I dread watching the clock/scratching off the days for anything, so I was pleasantly surprised when I realized that I'll want to start pansies and lavender soon. All four of my seed orders are in, picking up bulk potting soil on Monday, gonna go through the garage and inventory my seed trays and nursery pots, my spreadsheet for the garden timeline is done, my varieties are set in stone, all is going so smooth. But.... Lordy. I HAVE to stop asking permissions from my failures to be successful. I've never felt imposter syndrome quite like this. I'm a skilled gardener, and an intuitive one. I grow things that a lot of people give up on, and I do it regeneratively. I didn't even bring in any soil to my spent bramble patch/horribly neglected lawn turned garden last year, but its mid February and I'm still feeding myself from it. I HAVE to give myself permission to do what others are doing. I'm not a fraud, I'm not less "legit," I'm a market gardener. And I am entitled to all the connections and tools and resources at my disposal. No one hates me. Gosh. I gotta breathe it out. I may be the only proper market garden, who is specifically not a farm in the area. I really gotta set that coffee date with a potential mentor, even if I'm doing it scared out of my mind. I am not doing a good job of holding space for myself right now. Maybe I just don't really trust others to do the same.
It's mid February. I successfully let seed starting and seed ordering come quicker than I realized. I dread watching the clock/scratching off the days for anything, so I was pleasantly surprised when I realized that I'll want to start pansies and lavender soon. All four of my seed orders are in, picking up bulk potting soil on Monday, gonna go through the garage and inventory my seed trays and nursery pots, my spreadsheet for the garden timeline is done, my varieties are set in stone, all is going so smooth. But.... Lordy. I HAVE to stop asking permissions from my failures to be successful. I've never felt imposter syndrome quite like this. I'm a skilled gardener, and an intuitive one. I grow things that a lot of people give up on, and I do it regeneratively. I didn't even bring in any soil to my spent bramble patch/horribly neglected lawn turned garden last year, but its mid February and I'm still feeding myself from it. I HAVE to give myself permission to do what others are doing. I'm not a fraud, I'm not less "legit," I'm a market gardener. And I am entitled to all the connections and tools and resources at my disposal. No one hates me. Gosh. I gotta breathe it out. I may be the only proper market garden, who is specifically not a farm in the area. I really gotta set that coffee date with a potential mentor, even if I'm doing it scared out of my mind. I am not doing a good job of holding space for myself right now. Maybe I just don't really trust others to do the same.
Shades-of-Oregon
Deeply Rooted
Amen…
flowerbug
Garden Master
when you grow up without parents or with parents without healthy boundaries it can be a challenge to figure it out later.
digitS'
Garden Master
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Heliena
Chillin' In The Garden
Maybe my mistake was ordering green house plastic for my cold frame... we got two feet of snow in two days. After a warm spell last week I thought "Maybe when it gets here, I'll actually be able to shovel out and work on the green house."
That would be overwhelmingly false..... The hubby is outside right now trying to free my car from our driveway so maybe I can actually leave the house tomorrow.
On the bright side, I started pansies and celery a few nights ago, the pansies are starting to swell and send out their tiny white feets. I also sowed some gem type marigolds for fun, and more sweet basil to have indoors. I potted up my pomegranate yearling, and my two Barabados Cherry trees are absolutely glowing after being moved under the grow lights. I'm curious if the more mature one will flower with the change. I'm expecting a bunch of seed orders soon, and there's a local seed swap tomorrow, in theory...
I also happenstancially found that farmer friend of mine at the coffee shop with an hour of time to spare for me, and she had nothing but absolute encouragement. And these wise words: "When my mind is saying horrible things to me, it's usually just my body trying to signal me to move. The words themselves don't matter, they are just trying to tell you that *something* is wrong." So the next time the imposter syndrome comes creeping in, I vow to ask my body what's wrong... and to forgive my mind. I am so sure that maybe I aught to be sleeping more than I am. But when does mama get "mom time" if not after the baby FINALLY beds down at 9:30pm? The cat would be disappointed if he didn't get his nightly snuggles.
That would be overwhelmingly false..... The hubby is outside right now trying to free my car from our driveway so maybe I can actually leave the house tomorrow.
On the bright side, I started pansies and celery a few nights ago, the pansies are starting to swell and send out their tiny white feets. I also sowed some gem type marigolds for fun, and more sweet basil to have indoors. I potted up my pomegranate yearling, and my two Barabados Cherry trees are absolutely glowing after being moved under the grow lights. I'm curious if the more mature one will flower with the change. I'm expecting a bunch of seed orders soon, and there's a local seed swap tomorrow, in theory...
I also happenstancially found that farmer friend of mine at the coffee shop with an hour of time to spare for me, and she had nothing but absolute encouragement. And these wise words: "When my mind is saying horrible things to me, it's usually just my body trying to signal me to move. The words themselves don't matter, they are just trying to tell you that *something* is wrong." So the next time the imposter syndrome comes creeping in, I vow to ask my body what's wrong... and to forgive my mind. I am so sure that maybe I aught to be sleeping more than I am. But when does mama get "mom time" if not after the baby FINALLY beds down at 9:30pm? The cat would be disappointed if he didn't get his nightly snuggles.
digitS'
Garden Master
Tending living plants is only one step from gathering food.
Humans had the cleverness to gather seeds of useful plants and sow them where they were more convenient and had not been growing. Assisting those valued plants by limiting competition from undesirable plants is an additional small step.
Perhaps plant growing areas and human habitation locations are not especially convenient for needed water. Moving water may be of benefit for both.
Next, gathering.
Steve
Humans had the cleverness to gather seeds of useful plants and sow them where they were more convenient and had not been growing. Assisting those valued plants by limiting competition from undesirable plants is an additional small step.
Perhaps plant growing areas and human habitation locations are not especially convenient for needed water. Moving water may be of benefit for both.
Next, gathering.
Steve
